Haven’t been on here, haven’t been journaling. Been tearing around. Fell off the god damn horse
Getting back on it. Mad at myself.
I watched a Ted talk MONTHS ago where a guy took a short video of his life every day. Found it inspiring and decided I was going to start it on my birthday. Well here is my bday and here is my video!!!!
Haven’t written on here in a while which is crummy.
My excuse is I have no excuse! I neglected to make this part of my life a priority! Shame on me.
I had to miss class yesterday which is a bummer but I’m excited to listen to the recordings! I’m also supposed to join a conference call with Scott dinsmore today and I might miss that but I really don’t want to. Ugh.
Prioritizing and balance. Why the heck is this soooooooo difficult!
I woke up this morning feeling grateful. Hopeful. That’s always a nice way to start the day, with the grateful part.
I’m still really dazed and confused and am constantly wondering if this will ever pass. Then I try to rev myself up by saying this is my story! The story of a champion!!!! But that only lasts for so long. I need to start feeling, not just saying.
Anxiety is the mistaken belief that something could go wrong.
I had my first class on Tuesday for Life Coaching and it went extremely well! I am so thrilled about this process and I feel like there’s so much to learn and I just want to soak it all up!!
There was something pretty amazing that my wonderful teacher shared that I am going to post after this but truly all the content was incredible.
Aside from my wonderful and inspiring course I also was knocked down a pegs the other day. I was cleaning my room and I came across the program from a very traumatic funeral I went to last september. It broke my heart so I cried for a while WHAT MADE IT WORSE was I was listening to a great Pandora station but then Feilds of Gold by Sting came on and I lost it even more
Anyway, at the back of the program I found 5 things that the children learned from their father that they wanted to share with everyone. I decided to take each of those things and turn them into art, and I’m going to put the pieces up on my wall. I am really happy about this, I have really found that creating things always helps me process. So I hope that’ll go well! I think it will!
yes. i not so secretly in love with shakira! her moves and songs definitely get me moving!
keep goin’ girl
im gonna try to also!
.organize work space
.do some “home work”
.listen to Paul Simon pandora station
.get rid of stuff
But exciting! I just did 50 squats.
Oui, it is 12:40 am on a Tuesday (Wednesday?) but hell I did it!
FEAR IS AN ILLUSION Y’ALL
So I didn’t get the things printed like I had committed to BUT that’s because the total came out to be WAY more than I ever thought it would be, so I’m giving myself a get out of jail free card on that one.
However today I DID do some things including, meditate, spend some time on my course which officially starts tomorrow AND went to a dance lesson.
I reallllllly didn’t want to go dance because I just found out my cousin Grace died and I feel really crummy about it. I was in no mood to move let alone cha cha.
But I can’t let things that are beyond my control control me. Big or small there will always be a reason not to do something. And the whole point of this is that I stop thinking and acting that way.
True enough, sometimes things are so overwhelming you can’t do the thing you’d like to, you can’t function the way you’d like to. But someone recently told me “you need to draw a line and live above it” and I believe in that.
It’s hard to take care of yourself sometimes with everything that goes on in life, and one of the ways to do that is to move your body!! I seriously have been lacking in that so I’m glad that today I made a change.